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Even with the excitement of a new relationship and the positive emotions that come with it, those "special" days will continue to roll around. My dear wife's 53rd birthday is coming, August 7th.
I am happy to report that I am NOT filled with dread. Before this relationship with Debbie began, I was. If not for this wonderful woman, I would be a prisoner inside my mind and my heart. There are a few people on WWD who have known me to withdraw on certain days and just go try to work it out. In case anyone cares, this big boy isn't afraid to shed tears.
I am filled with love for my dear Shade, and also I am filled with love for my dear Debbie. There is room for both. I thank God for them and that Debbie understands and is able to allow me to speak of Shade as a huge part of my life and not be threatened or annoyed. That is such a relief. I cannot describe how much so.
I am not over my grieving process -- I hope that my heart never completely heals. Shade was a huge part of my life. I was devoted to her and my identity was intertwined with hers. When she died in my arms, a piece of my heart went with her. Her love is still in mine.
Debbie is my new love. I'll admit that I want a happily after with her. Time will tell -- My heart is singing with the overflowing love of two amazing women.
Thank you for reading. I welcome your comments.
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