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Since my wife passed in January (after a short but valiant seven week battle with pancreatic cancer) I have been in a couple of grief groups, read a couple books, and also belong to a private FB widowers group.
All have and continue to help. It has only been in the last few weeks that I have come out of the fog and have started to pull it all together. So, to be honest, the thought of any kind of intimacy would scare the hell out of me.
I never so much as touched another woman's hand in 42 years. So, like I said, I'll just keep trying to do something positive every day. Keep trying to move forward.
I understand and accept my wife is not coming through the door. I suppose when the time is right and my heart is sufficiently healed, I will start to be more open. But I can tell you, I am not and never will be interested in any FWB or one night stand situations.
I am not judging. Whatever works for people with this struggle is fine with me. I just want everybody to be okay. I'm just looking for some friends that could understand this non stop roller coaster ride I'm on. Again, I wish you and everybody else here good luck with their journey.